I can not tell you how many times I about started to write a post and then totally trashed the idea of ever really writing on here again. I left posts on draft. Left pages of my notebook blank for days. I think I am more in a reading phase right now more than anything. Really more than anything. I would rather put my face in a book then pen to paper or hands to keys. Slowly I have gotten back into writing in an actual notebook. I had a whole post idea I was somewhat excited about than I lost the real drive to share it here and just kept it on a piece of paper. That was towards the beginning of May. Now we are half way through July… and I still simply don’t want to share it.
That post I was planning to write and share many many times and it just never happened. Clearly, since I haven’t posted since the beginning of May. Then I decided today I wont post it because it is just for me and for God. Which is the special thing about a relationship with the creator.
There is this book I am reading, called “Here, Now”, it definitely confirmed that I don’t actually need to share it. Maybe I wanted to, but also, I didn’t want to. My brain is so scattered and the notes are to all over the place to actually make a sentence of it. Let alone a whole post.
Not everything is to be shared. That is what I learned from a chapter in that book I mentioned above. Which is really funny since while reading the chapter it talks a lot about social media, mainly Instagram, my Instagram app completely stopped working. Okay, God I see you there! Maybe a whole day where I disconnect from that little app is what I really need to really see the good in the mundane. The truth of it all is that Instagram can be platform that we overshare on and find ourselves feeling less than and often stuck. We make our lives look like they are something on this app, but then we exit out of it and start to see the reality that is our life. And often times we don’t like how it looks. That can go for any social media.
I want my days to mean something. To show for something. But more often than not the days feel meaningless and mundane. Especially when you see the highlight reel of so many people on your feed many times a day. I looked the other day and I spend a lot more time on those colorful icons than I do reaching for God, learning new things and actually living a life that is maybe actually worth sharing — a life that glorifies God . Those days feel so dull and silent when I am trying to fill my brain with what @*insert username here* had for lunch instead of what Christ did to feed the 5,000 for lunch. Sometimes my days really, if I am honest, are boring and bland. like no taste. Hey Casady, remember today? oh, you don’t? probably because it was bland and forgettable.
I would totally be lying if I said I didn’t want everyday to be spectacular. extravagant. Beautiful. meaningful. Stunning and growth-filled. Life-filled. I believe lovely things are life giving and I believe lovely things are from God. All of that leads to abundance with Him.
But. hey. the abundance of life always comes by and with a shift — a new perspective.
I see that as life filling — A new perspective. New life. New shift. It’s something lovely.
If I am to build something meaningful of my days. Something beautiful. maybe even timeless. I must go into the plainest. most ordinary. boring days with open eyes. If I am to build a whole beautiful life out of the smallest of moments, then the regular days really do count the most. Maybe the simplest shift of perspective shows us the little boring so called bland day can turn into a beautiful growth filled day that adds up to an abundant life.
I ask God what all of this is for. the small. mundane. ordinary days that I seem to be counting begrudgingly more often than simply capturing the lovely and beautiful. like getting to lay in bed an extra 10 minutes. or getting all the green lights. pouring just the right amount of creamer to where your coffee is extra phenomenal that morning. I mean, can I get an amen?? getting to talk to just the right person at just the right time. hearing a new worship song that speaks differently to your soul than you thought was possible. getting an evening at home with family that you weren’t excepting. hearing a word from God that brings you closer to Him. These are lovely and beautiful things that can happen in the days we call mundane. the lovely little moments He brings in our lives. That’s what He says — It can all be lovely and life giving. But our perspective in those moments, if we see it lovely and not so ordinary, depends on how deep our faith is and how closely we walk with God.
That is what the teacher in Ecclesiastes hits me most with the truth. The truth of all those small moments added together equals something beautiful in its time.
I can’t see the whole scope of Gods work in my life. but, if you can, hit a girl up and let me know what the Lord is doing. Just kidding! Some days I despise little moments and have a fear my life will really always be stuck in the mundane. But that makes me human. that makes me in need of grace. that grace adds up to a life in abundance. Growth.
So there He is, working in all seasons. The seasons where the only thing holding you up is a cup of coffee and a book. the seasons where you are struggling to see that physical or metaphorical light at the end of the tunnel. the season where you are waiting for that promise to unfold. the season where you are stuck in one chair all day wondering why the week days are five and weekends are only two (really quite the mystery. and how can we change that?). the seasons where the only glue that seems to be working for your broken down life is the glue that is His grace and mercy. BUT also the season that you seem to be thriving in. where the family is at peace. a friendship is at peace. promises are before your eyes. you hear God the clearest you have ever heard Him. Your actions are reflecting His breath. All of it.
there He is. working in all seasons. I’m only responsible for showing up. Even in my so called mundane. He is still giving me those “mundane” days. (I am not one to use a saying like that — about God giving us another day. so please don’t get used to it). But He is turning and adding those days into a beautiful season of Him reaching His hand out in a total different way than you’d expect.
capture them. those moments. small or mundane. They add up to something and they all equal abundance and more peace within His presence. Hold tight to the creator of the season. shift, change, scoot, move. all of it. any of it. if it gets you closer to God and gets you closer to that abundant living in Him. It is something lovely. It is something abundant. It is something beautiful in its time.