I had a thought the other day, as my usual overthinking self does, about how life can be so unpredictable and really never goes how you think it will. It wasn’t about anything huge, honestly, it was something so small I can’t even remember. But it is awesome how God can use such small things to teach you big things. I had an amazing friend of mine remind me this past week to lay it down at the feet of God, and it all connected. Again look at God just orchestrating everything at just the right time to teach us how to live through Him! Man He is good!
A year ago my life was totally different, there hasn’t been a massive change. But I thought I had everything all laid out back then. So okay this was going to happen, then I would do this, and it would lead to this, and some how my plan would all work out just like I was thinking. But you know all for His glory, right? Yup, His glory, even though I was the one making all those so called “plans” and just crossing my fingers they were all good with Him. I had this plan of my own that I would literally lay in bed at night dreaming about these amazing plans my Heavenly Father had laid on my heart. And yes, maybe then He had given me those ideas, but right now my life is not at all how I thought it’d be. That plan is long gone and now I’m just trying to live day by day, and trying not to overthink the future (that is easier said then done, unfortunately).
A year ago I wouldn’t think this is how my life would be, I literally didn’t think I would be living where I am now (yay for moving into two houses in one year). A year ago I didn’t think I would be working where I am now. I thought I would be working in a hair salon, not working where I am now, or the other places I have worked. There are many other things that have changed in the past year that just go to show we have no control over anything. Big or small, life changing or not, important to us or not, no matter what we can’t control it.
Maybe my “a year ago” analogy doesn’t go with what I am trying to say, but I feel like it does. If it doesn’t to you maybe read it again *shoulder shrug*. But for me it goes to show that everyday, every situation, every circumstance, every hardship. every trial, and every blessing has to be laid down right at the feet of God. We have to surrender every single moment, plan, idea, and our lives at His feet because that is where they belong as His children. We belong at His feet serving Him, and our desires belong at His feet where we give them over for Him to use for the glory of His kingdom.
We begin by surrendering our lives to Him knowing we are sinners, asking for His forgiveness, and then becoming children of the one true King. But the surrendering doesn’t stop there. It may just be a daily battle for us to surrender it all to Him. A surrender of our day to day task and our future plans and desires. Our all belongs to Him, not just the good but also the bad. The fear, anxiety, and stress, all of them belong right there at His feet.
Why is it so hard for us to surrender our lives to our Father? Maybe surrendering it all and laying it all down at His feet makes us think we are lost or makes us feel lost, especially when they are hard things to deal with. Sometimes we may think because we have already surrendered our lives to Him by asking for His forgiveness of our sins we have to have it all together now. As if we don’t stress about the future, worry about the present, or have anxiety about the past. It is like we can’t even acknowledge the fact that we are dealing with worry and anxiety. Thank goodness that isn’t the case of actually having everything together. But sometimes we think it is the case. I think that is where we fall, thinking that because we surrendered our lives to Him means we will have it all together, but it doesn’t, we are still sinful, broken, and seeking something to surrender too. It is just now we have an Almighty King and Father to fall face forward to and bring all of that unforeseen pain to.
I often times feel like I’ve got it all together, then I wake up from my actually dream and I am laying in my bed realizing that I have no clue what I am doing, my room is a mess, I am running late to work, I don’t remember how long it has been since I shaved my legs, and last time I checked I still had no clue what I was going to do with my life. But hey in that dream my room was very neat, I was on time for work, my hair actually looked good, I had freshly shaved legs that are also tan (ha bonus), and my life was totally on course with my own plan. But like I said, we wake up from those dreams. So I just put one foot on the floor after waking up from that oh so lovely dream and tell myself “I surrender today to Him”. I surrender the thoughts in my head and the steps that I take.
At some point life will get to be to much for us to bare, when we think we have it all together but really don’t. It’ll all come right at us – the knowledge of the only way to have complete peace is through surrendering everything at His feet. Life will be to much to take on ourselves. The stress, worry, fear, and lies we tell ourselves will only be gone when we realize the only place they belong are right at His feet. That is where we can’t touch them, pick them back up, or dwell on them again, because we have given it to Him.
In surrendering we find peace.
“In peace I will lie down and fall asleep, for you alone Lord make me secure.” Psalm 4:8
“Peace I leave with you: my peace I give to you, not as the world gives do I give you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” John 14:27
“You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.” Isaiah 26:3
“Submit yourselves to God. Resist the Devil, and he will flee from you.” James 4:7
To be able to throw ourselves at our Fathers feet there has to be complete surrendering of our lives, the good, the bad, the hurt, the healing, the pain, the loss, the blessings, the trials, the unforeseen, and everything in between. A complete surrender to the King of kings who’s nail pierced hands will one day hold our tear streaked face, look us in the eyes, and tell us exactly how much He loves us.