Throwing Ourselves At His Feet

I had a thought the other day, as my usual overthinking self does, about how life can be so unpredictable and really never goes how you think it will. It wasn’t about anything huge, honestly, it was something so small I can’t even remember. But it is awesome how God can use such small things to teach you big things. I had an amazing friend of mine remind me this past week to lay it down at the feet of God, and it all connected. Again look at God just orchestrating everything at just the right time to teach us how to live through Him! Man He is good!

A year ago my life was totally different, there hasn’t been a massive change. But I thought I had everything all laid out back then. So okay this was going to happen, then I would do this, and it would lead to this, and some how my plan would all work out just like I was thinking. But you know all for His glory, right? Yup, His glory, even though I was the one making all those so called “plans” and just crossing my fingers they were all good with Him. I had this plan of my own that I would literally lay in bed at night dreaming about these amazing plans my Heavenly Father had laid on my heart. And yes, maybe then He had given me those ideas, but right now my life is not at all how I thought it’d be. That plan is long gone and now I’m just trying to live day by day, and trying not to overthink the future (that is easier said then done, unfortunately).

A year ago I wouldn’t think this is how my life would be, I literally didn’t think I would be living where I am now (yay for moving into two houses in one year). A year ago I didn’t think I would be working where I am now. I thought I would be working in a hair salon, not working where I am now, or the other places I have worked. There are many other things that have changed in the past year that just go to show we have no control over anything. Big or small, life changing or not, important to us or not, no matter what we can’t control it.

Maybe my “a year ago” analogy doesn’t go with what I am trying to say, but I feel like it does. If it doesn’t to you maybe read it again *shoulder shrug*. But for me it goes to show that everyday, every situation, every circumstance, every hardship. every trial, and every blessing has to be laid down right at the feet of God. We have to surrender every single moment, plan, idea, and our lives at His feet because that is where they belong as His children. We belong at His feet serving Him, and our desires belong at His feet where we give them over for Him to use for the glory of His kingdom.

We begin by surrendering our lives to Him knowing we are sinners, asking for His forgiveness, and then becoming children of the one true King. But the surrendering doesn’t stop there. It may just be a daily battle for us to surrender it all to Him. A surrender of our day to day task and our future plans and desires. Our all belongs to Him, not just the good but also the bad. The fear, anxiety, and stress, all of them belong right there at His feet.

Why is it so hard for us to surrender our lives to our Father? Maybe surrendering it all and laying it all down at His feet makes us think we are lost or makes us feel lost, especially when they are hard things to deal with. Sometimes we may think because we have already surrendered our lives to Him by asking for His forgiveness of our sins we have to have it all together now. As if we don’t stress about the future, worry about the present, or have anxiety about the past. It is like we can’t even acknowledge the fact that we are dealing with worry and anxiety. Thank goodness that isn’t the case of actually having everything together. But sometimes we think it is the case. I think that is where we fall, thinking that because we surrendered our lives to Him means we will have it all together, but it doesn’t, we are still sinful, broken, and seeking something to surrender too. It is just now we have an Almighty King and Father to fall face forward to and bring all of that unforeseen pain to.

I often times feel like I’ve got it all together, then I wake up from my actually dream and I am laying in my bed realizing that I have no clue what I am doing, my room is a mess, I am running late to work, I don’t remember how long it has been since I shaved my legs, and last time I checked I still had no clue what I was going to do with my life. But hey in that dream my room was very neat, I was on time for work, my hair actually looked good, I had freshly shaved legs that are also tan (ha bonus), and my life was totally on course with my own plan. But like I said, we wake up from those dreams. So I just put one foot on the floor after waking up from that oh so lovely dream and tell myself “I surrender today to Him”. I surrender the thoughts in my head and the steps that I take.

At some point life will get to be to much for us to bare, when we think we have it all together but really don’t. It’ll all come right at us – the knowledge of the only way to have complete peace is through surrendering everything at His feet. Life will be to much to take on ourselves. The stress, worry, fear, and lies we tell ourselves will only be gone when we realize the only place they belong are right at His feet. That is where we can’t touch them, pick them back up, or dwell on them again, because we have given it to Him.

In surrendering we find peace.

“In peace I will lie down and fall asleep, for you alone Lord make me secure.” Psalm 4:8

“Peace I leave with you: my peace I give to you, not as the world gives do I give you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” John 14:27

“You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.” Isaiah 26:3

“Submit yourselves to God. Resist the Devil, and he will flee from you.” James 4:7

To be able to throw ourselves at our Fathers feet there has to be complete surrendering of our lives, the good, the bad, the hurt, the healing, the pain, the loss, the blessings, the trials, the unforeseen, and everything in between. A complete surrender to the King of kings who’s nail pierced hands will one day hold our tear streaked face, look us in the eyes, and tell us exactly how much He loves us.


I Am Habakkuk

We question God, not question that He is God, but you know when someone is doing something and you just look at them like “Why are you doing that? How is that accomplishing anything?” (And if you know me there are most definitely facial expressions that come with those questions.)

I think we do that with God sometimes. We let our questions, confusion, doubts, frustration, and sometimes hurt completely cloud the way we look to God. We actually look to God and say “Why are you doing that? How is this accomplishing anything?” and sometimes even “Okay God this isn’t what we talked about”. I can’t tell you how many times that is how my relationship with God has been. Really wondering just where He is going with this, where He is leading me, and wondering what He is doing. Then I came to the point when I realized I am Habakkuk. I question God and His reasons, the way He does things, and why things aren’t happening the way I think they should, but I have no right to that. Yet I still do it.

No, my Habakkuk moment isn’t total violence, destruction, and conflict. My Habakkuk moment is different than that, it is still frustration and confusion, just in a different way.

I know I am Habakkuk because I get frustrated, confused, and feel disheartened often when I just don’t see what God is trying to do. I am sure there are other Habakkuk’s in the world, I don’t know maybe you are. I am not going to lie Habakkuk has got major guts, he goes to God and pours out his heart and frustration. He called out “How long?” he questioned God and His reasons, he cries out to God “Why?”

When was the last time we did that? When was the last time you fell on your knees and cried to your Father in heaven? I think maybe we feel bad for going to God and crying out in our confusion and frustration but then again it is pretty easy to do. It is easy to cry out to God for change in a situation, the hard part comes when you know you’ve cried out but the situation doesn’t change.  

Habakkuk cries, God answers. But God answers in a way that shows His will is utterly amazing.

“Look at the nations and watch and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not even believe, even if I were to tell you.”

Habakkuk 1:5 

I thought of this the other day. I don’t want to know exactly what His will is for my life, I mean I’d be lying to you if I didn’t want to know some thing He has in store. But I also know He is up to something, He moves in mighty ways that we can never fathom. That brings glory to Him, and it brings peace to me. Inknowing that He has something so great up His sleeve for me that I wouldn’t even be able to wrap my head around, that makes me see how loved and cherished we are as His children.

God is answering in ways we can’t fathom because He is moving in ways we can’t fathom.

Go to God, He longs for the embrace with His children, He wants to give you comfort. But how can He give us comfort if we don’t go to Him in the pain and frustration? Take everything to God. Praise. Thanksgiving. Doubts. Hurt. Confusion. Loss. Faith. Maybe that is where we fall, we don’t go to God with everything. We go to God, yes, knowing we are sinner, but we still go to Him acting as if we have it all somewhat together. But He knows we are falling apart. Become aware that He is wanting a heart that truly beats and speaks to Him. He wants a soul that cries out for help when it seriously seems so impossible to find. You have to run to Him with everything. Like Habakkuk.

And when you go to Him with everything except everything, don’t except he will give you everything. But except His perfect will to be done. He is up to something. And He is everything.

{When you behold the glory of God and believe the Word of God, it gives you faith to accept the will of God.”  -Warren Wiersbe}

In knowing that our creator and Father is up to something it changes our stance. We aren’t standing in frustration anymore, we take a stance of praise. I took that note from Habakkuk. There God goes again with that living word of His, smackin us right up side the head with a verse that can be applied and lived out. We begin to change our stance to a faithful stance of praise because we know He is good, because He is God. And in your new stance of praise remember promises.

There are promises from God, we can’t forget He promises us things. I mean the list could go on and on of His promises. He even promises to give us the desires of our hearts if we humbly submit. And with humble submission our hearts desires start to be formed to be just like His hearts desires. Crazy how God works His will into our hearts.

Habakkuk 2:3 “For the revelation awaits for the appointed time: it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it: it will certainly come and will not delay.”

Promises from God in Habakkuk 2:3

1. The time is appointed.

2. Wait for it.

3. It will certainly come.

4. It will not delay.

We forget we can go to God and ask. Not ask, ask, and ask some more for literally whatever our little fleshly hearts desire. But humble yourself in His presence knowing that because of your faith if it doesn’t turn out exactly like you hoped and prayed you still have Jesus. And that is most important.

Mark 11:24 “Therefore, I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”

Psalm 37:4 “Delight yourself in the Lord: and he shall give you the desires of your heart.”

With our new stance of praise comes guidance and instruction, and it is the best kind of guidance and instruction because it comes from God Himself if we let Him and obey Him. Cry out to Him, praise Him. and the funny thing is when we start to do all of those we start to feel guidance and a heavenly leading upon our lives that can only be explained as His overwhelming splendor and majesty.

“When I heard, my body trembled; My lips quivered at the voice; Rottenness entered my bones; And I trembled in myself, That I might rest in the day of trouble. When he comes up to the people, He will invade them with his troops. Though the fig tree may not blossom, Nor fruit be on the vines; Though the labor of the olive may fail, And the fields yield no food; Though the flock may be cut off from the fold, And there be no herd in the stalls— Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation. The LORD God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer’s feet, And He will make me walk on my high hills.”

‭‭Habakkuk‬ ‭3:16-19‬

Habakkuk teaches us to face our doubts and questions honestly, and take them humbly to the Lord, wait for His word to teach us, and then worship Him no matter how we feel or what we see.

Fighting The Silence

I thought I would start this post off right off the bat with a challenge, one that I have been doing for a few weeks now. I am loving it!!

Here is the challenge: Have moments of silence.

That can either be totally scary and boring or it can sound completely amazing to you. For me it sounded scary and daunting, I am not really a fan of silence because then I will just think way to much about everything. Overthinking is my super power, what can I say, I should be an Avenger. I definitely couldn’t save the world with that power, but I would have a pretty cool suit.

I took this challenge because I craved hearing Gods voice so much that the fear of letting the silence take hold of me was pushed to the side.

I want to hear God speak to me so much I had to jump over the hurdle of overthinking and lay that at His feet before I even started this challenge. Because before you go before God you have to make sure you are also giving everything over to Him.

I recently finished the study “Discerning The Voice Of God” by Priscilla Shirer. Few words about this study. Best. Study . Ever. If I could recommend one study to anyone it would be this one. It applies to any season of life, because hearing God and his loving voice is the only thing that can prepare us and guide us in every aspect of life. Further in the study Priscilla challenges us to have time in silence, to leave real room for God to speak.

I picked a time everyday to just be in silence. No music, no one else, no TV, nothing. Now every morning when I get ready for work I am totally silent. I invite the silence that way I am completely ready to hear anything God is trying to tell me, ask me, or just talk to me about. But I don’t just stand there getting ready just thinking “oh well God please say something”. I prepare myself by asking God to heighten my spiritual senses to be able to hear Him better and I clearly invite the Holy Spirit into that place. That place is a place of worship and relationship.


It is worship because your showing reverence in the place you have invited the Holy Spirit into while being silent and fully giving that moment to Him. Worship isn’t just singing songs in church, our lives are a form of worship to our Father. By being silent and letting Him lead your life into His will and that will give Him glory.


Have you ever had a friendship with someone and only you talked? Like that is it, you asking them for something or talking something out with them and you not even listening to what they say. Our prayer life can get like that too. I don’t know about you, but that is a hard pill to swallow. I want my relationship with God to be as abundant as it can, and if I am not leaving room for Him to speak how am I supposed to know how to move?

Communication is a two way street, but sometimes in our relationship with God we let our communication with God be a one way highway. Its only us that talk, and we talk fast. We ask, we cry out, we speed up our prayers. But if we aren’t leaving any room for Him to speak and lead the way how is the relationship forming? Without leaving room for Him to speak clearly and lovingly we may be missing the clear answer and loving guidance.

One thing I do know is that it isn’t our fault that we aren’t used to silence. We feel like silence is awkward, weird, and useless, but often times God moves the most in the silence. We are so used to something always happening. The TV always being on, music always playing, people talking, or here is one that stings me– always on our phone. Now there is always something there to fill the void of silence and something to occupy our time. I’m not just talking about actual sound, but also action. We try and fill our time with a busy schedule, a TV show to watch, errands to run, people to hang out with, and if those aren’t filling up our time then we reach for our phones to fill the time with an endless scroll. I know good and well that when I don’t have anything to do I reach for my phone and scroll. It not a good habit and this girl wants to break it.

(Another mini challenge I have been doing is deleting my social media on Sundays. I get rid of those distractions on that day to make sure I am really focused, and listening to God.)

 Psalm 62:5 ” For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from Him.”

Habakkuk 2:20 “But the Lord is in His holy temple; let all the earth keep silence before Him.”

Luke 5:16 “But he would withdraw to a desolate place and pray.”

We fight the silence by filling the silence, but what if instead of fighting it we just invite it and let God use that time to speak to us and pour into us? Just by having that amount of time in silence in the mornings I have heard God speak about a lot of different things. It has become one of my favorite times in the day. But it isn’t the only time I am silent, I try and constantly be in prayer and conversation with God.

1 Thessalonians 5:17 “Pray without ceasing.”

In those times of prayer I also have moments of silence. I seek, then wait. I praise, then wait. I ask, then wait. I repent, then wait. There should always be room in prayer for Him to speak back.

My morning silence first starts with me asking in prayer for my spiritual senses to be heightened, for my heart to be in the right place, and asking if there is anything specific that I need to be listening for. Then I just simply talk to God and leave moments of nothing, so that I can hear what He wants me to hear. And in turn, do what He wants me to do.

Maybe you just need an actual silent prayer, where you just sit and wait. Because He knows your hearts desires, and if they are aligned with His will then they will happen.

Even in the silence the Spirit is deep within us and brings our hearts desires up our Father. Don’t we want to hear from our Father? Hear His will? His ways? Have His leading? As children of God we long to hear from our Father and maybe by just being silent is the way He is about to talk to you and lead you into something amazing. God can work in anything, and He can work even in the silence. It isn’t really silence if you are hearing Him speak.

8 Things I Want To Do Before I Turn 20

I turned 19 years old this past Tuesday, and usually I do some sort of post on my birthday but I didn’t get to it this year. I was going to make this list of “20 Things I Want To Do Before I Turn 20” then I realized that is only a year and a lot of stuff to do in a the time span of one year. Then I couldn’t think of 20 things I wanted to do before I turn 20. Because again, that is a lot, since I don’t have time to do 20 big things in my life in one year, or actually less then one year because I am posting this a few days after my birthday. Now I am going to do 8 things I want to do before I turn 20! You gotta work with what you got right?

{Here are my posts from my last few birthdays! My 18th birthday post, and my 17th birthday post!}

I have never made a list like this, that I can remember anyway. But you have to have goals and aspirations right?? Yeah I think so, and these are pretty big things, or at least things I want to start that I have always wanted to do.


This has been something I have wanted to do for a while, and I know I will get to cross this one off my list this summer!


Not just on my blog, but on actually paper. Something about getting your thoughts down throughout the day is just pretty great to me. Writing down thoughts gives you room for more thoughts (stole that from my 18th birthday post).


I have talked about fear before multiple times and how to leads to so much more. But in this next year I want to get stronger against the things fear leads to.


or really start a book, I know I won’t be able to write a whole book in (less then) one year. I have some ideas on this book that I may share later, but I really have no clue what i will do with the book. Keep it for myself, I have no idea.


His word is POWERFUL. There is no doubt about that, and knowing I have that in my pocket to pull out whenever I need it gives us power as well. I mean who doesn’t want to fight battles of stress, worry, anxiety, comparison, lack of peace, lack of patients, fear, trials, troubles, and anything under the sun without the living Word of God? I know I don’t, it’s sharper then any two edge sword. So I’m good with using it all through out my day to day knock out battle against the enemy.


I used to be able to play the piano when I was younger but now I can’t. I want to so badly to be able to go to they keys and play a song to just worship God and be in His presence giving Him praise!


We are people always searching for more, longing for more, craving more, and looking for more. But the only chase that will actually mean anything is the intentional, passionate pursuit of a relationship with God. It’s the search that actually matters, and the only one that will bring fulfillment.

I stole 7 from my 18th birthday blog post, but I wanted to share it again.


I would love to say I have read through the whole Bible! I also love writing throughout my Bible. Whether that is just simple notes, thoughts He has put on my heart, or another verse I thought would go good with it. I want my Bible to show the growth I have had with the Lord.

I do have more things I want to do this year of my life but I honestly don’t want to put them on here. I have learned that my relationship with Christ is the most important thing I will ever have and will ever be able to grow. So some things I pray to Him about needs to stay between just Him and I.

ya know it’s just personal.


Most of the time, or a lot of the time, my post are inspired by something I read, something I talked to someone about, or just a random thing I have thought of. But all of the time it is something God has laid on my heart, I won’t write a post out without prayerfully considering it, asking God about it, or meditating on the thoughts or verses. Now, this post is being written because I was talking to a really amazing friend of mine about our struggles, trails, and mountains we are trying to overcome in our relationship with God.

{Side note- People are important and special. Every person is important and special, yes. But the people you surround yourself with and talk to about your relationship with God are a different kind of important and special. Important because talking to someone about your struggles is a very daunting thing, but you need someone who is caring, honest, and just as open as you are. It is special because you can’t open up about all the hardships to just anyone. It is a scary thing to tell someone how your day actually is, or talk to them about their struggles too, because you want to be honest and Christ-like in all you do and say to that person. Being an accountability partners has to go both ways, there is giving and taking from both sides to help both sides grow and get stronger}

It is important and special, but also scary and daunting to talk to someone about struggles.

Wow that was a big side note, I am a master at rambling on, I promise you I am. you should see what most of my posts look like before I go back and make sure it makes sense. r-a-m-b-l-e  q-u-e-e-n.

Back to really what I am trying to say and get my thoughts together. I am really just hoping I get my point across. Does anyone else struggle with putting labels on God?? I think it is maybe an underlining struggle with everyone that we don’t really realize we are doing. We have this image of the King of the world, a Savior who is so powerful we can’t even wrap out heads around such a person. Yes, a person, because Jesus was fully man,a perfect and sinless man, but fully man! Being fully human ourselves and a person who can easily get in the flesh, overthink, analyze, worry, fear, and guess what– label. We tend to label the things we cant really wrap our thoughts around, like God Himself. We label God because sometimes we just don’t understand Him. Like I said, He is so powerful and strong, yet merciful and loving. Um yes, that’s pretty amazing!!

When our relationship with Him grow and see different blessings we go straight into labeling. “Well God gave me this, so he must be a loving God.” or “God took this opportunity away He must be mad at me” even “He let me go through this struggle, He must be a God of anger” sometimes “He got me through this trial, he has to be a God of peace.”

That is where we fall, putting labels on Him and seeing Him as fully one thing when in reality He is so much more.So much more peace then we can ever imagine, so much more love and power then we can even fathom. Yet he is an angry God, not at His children though, at the sin, at the hurt and pain that sin causes his Children. But when those labels start to form in our heads as to what He is, its putting Him in a smaller box then what He can actually fit it.

We do label more then just God, obviously. I can’t tell you I have never gone a few days where I have just laid in bed and labeled how everything in my life is, whoa is that daunting and not fun. Talk about analyzing your life and blessing from the Lord. We are labeling humans though. We like our labels, we like to put a name with everything. We are labeling how our day went by saying it was a good or bad day. We are labeling relationships by saying how much they mean to us or don’t mean to us. We are labeling people by analyzing what they say, how they act, or even by their social media (yeah, that one really hurt).  We are labeling things by what we spend our money on, how we care for the things, and how much attention give it. We are labeling places by how the place makes us feel, whether its a good or bad feeling. We have to face it we label EVERYTHING. Now can we help it? I really have no clue, I think we can give them to God though. But are we labeling God too? What if all the labels we put on our lives, relationships, people, things, places, and even ourselves are really just straining our relationship with God?

Our relationship with God is the most important things for any Christian. We have to focus, on Him, set goals, live fully for Him, and learn more from Him. And what if putting all of these labels on things, people, places, and relationships are taking our focus from the blessing which He has given us through those things.

We do give labels to things, people, relationships, our lives, and our God. We just have to make sure the labels we put on God are actually His character and not any lie Satan is trying to feed us. Because the moment we let Satan decide what we think God is the moment we are letting him have way to much to say about our Lord and Savior. Let the labels you give our King lead to more abundant life together. Let the label of peace give you rest, let rest give you love, let love give you hope, let hope lead to grace, grace lead to mercy, and in turn make you grow more and more closer to Him.

Philippians 4:7 “And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and mind in Christ Jesus.”

Make sure the labels are coming from the right source, His word. We have to know Him more to know what He is to us.


There are labels we have to let go of though, there are labels we put on people, places, circumstance, and God that don’t belong there. It is easier to put labels on things, I think it gives us a sense of power, a sense of being in control. When in reality there is to much going on in our lives and relationship with God to put such straining labels on such blessings. That is why we have to find blessings in the trials, sun shine is the shadows, shelter in the storm, power in the weakness, and love in the hurt. That is what God is – He is the blessings, the son, our shelter, our power, and an eternal love that far outlasts the painful labels we are putting on anything of this world.

PSALMS 46:1-5

“God is our shelter and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble. So we will not be afraid, even if the earth is shaken and mountains fall into the ocean depths; even if the seas roar and rage, and the hills are shaken by the violence. There is a river that brings joy to the city of God, to the sacred house of the Most High. God is in that city, and it will never be destroyed; at early dawn he will come to its aid.”

Because really these labels are acting as band aids that are covering far deeper holes in our lives that only Jesus can fill.

Obedience Outside Of The Comfort Zone

Every new year I pick a word I want to focus on and kind of make it a goal on its own. In 2017 my word was growth. That word was shown a lot in my relationship with God, and that’s what I wanted that word to mean for that year. I wanted to grow as a person, but most importantly grow in my relationship with God. And that’s what I did, growth was the only thing that I wanted to focus on that year, and it definitely worked out in that way. I focused solely on God, who He is, what He wants, and how I can grow closer to Him.

That was last year, this year my word is– obedience. I am just now picking out that word, and it is March, God seems to show up on His timing which I am good with that. I kind of went into this year thinking “I am just going to keep focusing on my relationship with God and it’ll be all good.” But then God hit me right where it counts, my spirit, the Holy Spirit, I mean it was conviction time. He told me “oh no, no, no. you’ve got some things you need to improve. That whole obeying me when I call, you aren’t doing it, and girl I am commanding you to that in my Word, so lets set this straight and get you out of this little comfort zone you’ve created for yourself.” My spirit seems to be a little sassy sometimes, or its just me, not sure. Either way it seems to be working since I am trying my best to listen right?

Getting back on track to obedience, that is my word for 2018. To me it goes right along with growth. I am pretty good at obeying, I would say anyway. but when it comes to the thing I have to do to obey being out of my comfort zone that’s when I tend to step back and question. “Ah well you see, I don’t think that was really God, I totally heard him wrong. He is fine with me staying in my comfort zone. This is where He has called me to stay.” Here is where I messed up with that thinking– 1. Questioning God talking to me, He loves talking to His children. 2. Thinking God was fine with me staying in my comfort zone, but that’s now how we grow. You can’t grow if you stay in a comfort zone. 3. Using the term “this is where He called me” to my advantage when really that term is only to be used for His advantage.

“For God is working in you, giving you the desires to obey Him and the power to do what pleases Him” Philippians 2:13

I hope so far this year I have stepped out of my comfort zone IN obedience to Christ, for His will, for His plan, and for our relationship. I never really thought I would get out of my comfort zone. I was comfortable and happy there, imagine that, a comfort zone I was comfortable in. It wasn’t until I got that kick in the butt to take that first step of faith that I realized the freedom and peace that stepping out gives us. I then knew it was never meant to be some place to stay IN but a place to grow OUT of.

What if when we are in a comfort zone God voice is very very soft? Because we are so content in our comfort zone we are only wanting Him to give us blessings, not challenges, so then we are only listening to what we want to hear and not what He wants us to hear. Most likely He is calling us to do something that is not that comfortable at all, so it really doesn’t fit in that little box we’ve created.

That hurts though,as His children we do long to hear Him, we do strive to always be in His presence, because we know the truth He is, we know the power He has, and we know the strength He can give us. Our souls crave to have that connection with Him and cutting off that loving voice cuts you off to the Savior of our souls. That is why Jesus came, so that we can have that eternal connection with God Himself. It is a powerful blessing to be able to have the opportunity to talk to God through the Holy Spirit. Why would we ever want to belittle that by not obeying?


“I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you should go; I will counsel you with My eye upon you.” Psalm 32:8

Think of your comfort zone like a box, the box is a certain size or shape only letting a certain amount of things to fit. Our box, or comfort zone, is not going to let us fit anything extra in it. No more people, no more growth, no more blessings, and no more God. He is so glorious and wonderful how can we except to let Him fit inside such a small box? We can’t let our spiritual growth be stunted by the certain amount of space we give it to flourish in. We have to listen, ask, receive, obey, and then grow. Step out with obedience and humility, just like Jesus, to do what God is calling you to do.


Obedience is not easy, to me it is one of the hardest things to do as a follower of Christ, because wow are we stubborn human beings, thank the Lord He has a lot of patience. For me the hardest things to obey are the simplest, like knocking on doors to invite people to church, going to a nursing home to pray for them, or leading a young girls Bible study at church. These are all things He has told me to do in the past few months, and I am trying my hardest to obey, but of course he has picked things that are completely out of my comfort zone. And they all have something in common, talking to people. That is where I start to wonder if God is really telling me to do something, when it has anything to do with talking to or in front of people. But once I did obey, like finally knocking on that door, finally praying over that person (talking with others listening, scariest thing of my life basically), or actually teaching young girls how to study His word. I saw growth, I saw freedom in Him, I felt peace, I spoke about Him, but most importantly I obeyed Him.

“If you love Me, you will keep My commandments.” John 14:15

I am not saying I have been obeying Him my entire life, because He knows I haven’t. Just recently in this past year I have stepped out in faith to His obedience. firstly I recognized He was talking to me, nope He wasn’t talking to the person next to me to go knock on that door, He was telling me too. And there were and are times where I don’t obey, but luckily I am starting to realize as long as His word says it I am to obey. I am to listen. and I am to grow in Him with everything I do. The obedience causes growth, it causes you to see freedom in what He calls you to do, and it causes you to hear Him even louder now, because you weren’t silencing Him in your comfort zone anymore.

I am still listening, asking, and trying my best to obey, because I want to grow. The only way you can grow is to get out of that box and let the Holy Spirit move you in the direction He wants you to go. Let the Spirit kick that box out, let Him show you what it is like to fully rely on His commands and love. Because that’s what you see when you obey. You see His love and hear Him even louder then you ever did when you were in that box. And isn’t that we as believers long for? To hear His voice? To feel His presence? In our box His voice is muffled, muted, and we feel alone. But outside of that box we get to hear Him, and know Him even more.

Fill The Journal – Speaking Truth Into Our Souls

I highly doubt I am the only one who has multiple notebooks laying around their room, some with a little bit written in it or nothing at all written in it. So knowing I had lots of journals laying around I decided to do a little challenge, I am going to fill up an entire page of a journal throughout the day. I’ll carry it with me and write down some small things I have thought about, or when I can’t do that, at the end of the day I’ll just write out anything on an entire page.

I have been doing this “fill the journal” thing for 5 days straight, and so far so good. sometimes I wonder how I’ll fill a whole page. And then some days I was writing in the margins. I definitely challenge you to carry around a notebook to capture your thoughts, worries, and words. Because I know I can never remember everything I have thought of. Most of the times I am thinking about cookies or anything sweet, but I promise I haven’t just been writing down different kinds of desserts in five pages of a notebook, or am I?

One thing I know for sure is that this journaling challenge so far has brought a lot to light about my relationship with God and just how much I need that to be steady and secure. When you are writing so much down and your just letting your brain work out your problems and struggles, God seems to bring your heart to the surface and show you just who He is and how He can take control of those problems and struggle. I’ve gone back to read a few of my days and it is hard reading your problems, I realize I have a lot of problems, trust me a lot, but I know only He can fix them.

With the notebook filling challenge you don’t give yourself a topic or anything to go with for that day. Even though some days that is just what happens, you are having a struggle that day and you’ve just got to write it all out. Get it all out in the open, and let God know you do see that problem, and you need His guiding hand in it.

A few times on my days of writing God just seemed to pull right out of me the truth of what I am always thinking, or better yet overthinking. overthinking is a MAJOR struggle of mine. I hate to admit it because overthinking is just plain annoying. It really gets to you and makes you think things that I know the Lord doesn’t want us thinking. But a lot of my pages, or days, have been about overthinking, fear, analyzing situations, and letting the devil speaks lies into my life. Whoa, can I get an amen on just how much the devil just loves to attack Gods children with lies?!

Our soul needs truth spoken into them. We, as believers, constantly have things that assault our soul, or seek to distract our central focus. 

Anytime we let the devil tell us lies that make us worry, stress, fear, analyze, or overthink, we are slowly letting our minds and heart believe that those lies are true. Everything that Satan tells us to make us worry, fear, or overthink is a lie and we have to fight those lies with the truth that God tells us in His word. His word gives us truth, and that truth helps us realign our thoughts back to Him, back to what HE tells us, and what He knows we need to hear as His children.

“Fasten the belt of truth around your waist” Ephesians 6:14a

We know that those things– fear, stress, worry, overthinking. All of those things don’t get to sit on His throne. We know that, but we have to remind ourselves, tell our soul, speak it out so that our souls can hear us confessing “all the glory to God.” Only the truth our heart and souls hear can free us from the lies Satan tells us. We can try our best to win a battle against him ourselves, but the only way to win a fight against Satan is to speak Gods truth out for us to hear and Satan to flee.

“Mold me, shape me, until I think like you Lord.” Romans 12:2

What truths are you telling yourself? Are you letting Satan tell you lies that are crushing you? These are all questions I have asked myself, that make me realize I am letting Satan think he has a hold of me, that he has his foot in the door to let me make this other reality where all my fears and overthinking have become real and true. But only Gods truth is reality, only those things He tells me can lift me up otherwise Satan’s lies will tear me down.


It is easy to get caught up in a spiral of overthinking and fear, that’s where Satan gets me, those are the things filling the first 5 pages in my notebook (maybe a mention of cookies here or there, just kidding).  I am really trying to get to the point where I don’t overthink every little things, but I think it may be a while. Was I just over thinking that?? I know that my God is all powerful and anything Satan says is a lie, because he is just trying to manipulate me into thinking he is right. But in this reality, the reality of this world where Jesus Christ reigns forever, He is ultimately the only one who can speak to me and speak life into me. The devil doesn’t want us to know what we are capable of as children of God, that is why he feeds us lies. He wants us to think less and less of ourselves that way he has a foothold into our reality and has the capability to changing our thoughts of reality.

“Because Christ and our faith in Him, we can now come boldly and confidently in Gods presence.” Ephesians 3:12

So the next time you know Satan is trying to speak lies into your life you speak truth. When he is telling you that you aren’t worthy, loved, seen, heard, favored, fought for, and forever wanted by the creator and Savior. Speak truth out of your mouth and into your soul, so that you are reminded that you are worthy, loved, seen, heard, favored, fought for, and forever wanted by the creator and Savior. When you are speaking that truth, He comes near. He comes to you and fills you with even more truth, He comforts you with the embrace of a loving Father, so that when you feel those fears His truth protects in only the way a Savior can protect you.